I’m in a very vulnerable, emotional mood. It was an overwhelming day. I can’t help it. These days, everything seems overwhelming.
I’ve shown you readers what my son looks like. I’ve told you stories about me and my son. There’s one other thing I treasure even more that I’m sure most of you have never seen–
The unfortunate thing is this ‘gift’ I have that I had created not only gives me joy, but also sadness. I’m sure you already know what I’m talking about. There’s no dodging the truth of it.
I have to say, though, without a doubt–the memories win over every time. I have this joy in my heart that will never die–even if I cry over them. Just to remember….
Remember the moments I lived that were precious, beautiful, lovely…. Hold onto them as tight as possible, keep them locked safe inside my heart…. That’s where they stay real. And not just dreams long gone.
This video I’m going to show you is something I created two years ago. Just click on my son’s photo, and it’ll take you to a video I’ve posted on my Facebook. It was a gift for my wife. I remember it made her cry when she watched it Christmas morning….
To prepare you, I think it’s fitting to let you know beforehand that my son’s name is Aidan. Aidan Roustan. My pride and joy.
It’s because of things like this that remind me how important my dreams are. Soon, I’ll be able to send my son Aidan a gift that one day he’ll be able to read when he’s older–that gift will be a letter I wrote him explaining to him how I had just accomplished my dream of being an author, how I reached my goal of publication–all for him. It will be a letter telling him to never give up on any dreams he might have. To never let go. Because the moment you let go, your life is…lifeless.
For now, though, you all will get to see how much I’ve loved my family–even though that family doesn’t ‘exist‘ anymore. That’s the funny thing about joy. Even when there’s sadness, there’s always joy. There’s joy in the memories….
